Tonight as I was dancing, I was observing myself as I was healing myself. By this, I mean I was actively noting how my mood was changing and the trigger thoughts that were connected to the changes. I had been feeling depressed, my thoughts caught up in old past defeats that were really draining my energy.
Sometimes when I practice ecstatic dance, I simply move and I don't worry about consciousness. But most of the time I try to watch what is happening in my inner world while I am moving. And tonight I observed my body shedding anger and hurt.
Daily pressures of Western ways of work take away my balance. I had been feeling my strengths were not respected at my workplace, and the pressures of producing a large volume of work for an employer.
Towards the end of the session, I was simply standing rooted to one spot, waving like seaweed in the ocean current, feeling my knees, hips, and spine become supple, dropping my anger like scales falling off as I undulated. I must have stood like that for 5 to 10 minutes.
By the time I was done, I felt completely restored, the bad day behind me, and at peace.
